Yes, I did it again. Took a little break from the blogging world. Not because I didn't have anything to say, but because its been a busy few months, and time to actually sit and gather my thoughts has been far and few.
So what's been up around the Swift household the past couple of months? Well, my parents moved to Arizona, Brian's parents are snow-birding here, we had Thanksgiving with both sets of parents plus more, we had Christmas with almost the entire side of my family (minus and Alex and Katie. Booo), Tynan had and is recovering very well from surgery on both eyes, and we had a little birthday party for Ty's 4th birthday. Throw in work stuff, church stuff, and just regular life stuff and it's been a fun, crazy, busy few months.
So I have a 4 year old again. I've done the baby thing, I've done the toddler thing, the 2's thing, and the 3's thing. I haven't really done the 4's thing. Not in a normal way at least. Tynan told me his legs hurt this morning, and my first thought was wondering if I should call his pediatrician to get a blood test or go straight to the HEMOC unit at Cardon's. Yeah. That's not normal. No matter how much anyone tells me that those thoughts are "normal", it sure doesn't feel normal. It will never feel normal to analyze every bruise, pain or fever that your child has. To have my stomach clench. To repeat "Please Lord, may I be able to think clearly on this. Please show me if it's something I really need to be concerned about, and give me peace if it's just normal." on a very, very, very regular basis. To feel like I want to throw up each time I have to walk into a doctors office no matter what reason we are there. Heck, I want to throw up each time I even have to call to make an appointment. *Sigh*
I started a Beth Moore Bible study last week. One with no homework, because as much as I love to hear her speak, I just can't add hours of homework a day to my life. 2 weeks in, and I feel like I already need to take it again to grasp it fully. Heavy, deep, and way too much self analyzing, but so on point that I'm a bit in shock. I always feel so stupid, shallow and dull when doing any type of self analysis.
How's that for just putting it out there? I probably need to change the title of the blog to "Random Swift Thoughts" or more accurately, "Repetitive Swift Thoughts"
